tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70217889536842380062024-03-05T08:54:07.312+03:00Tea chai cha-yen thé té tēja teh tae ti teatha čajPeace has arrivedJasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.comBlogger109125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-12953305777416246322009-12-29T02:01:00.000+03:002009-12-29T02:01:59.264+03:00No Darling it's not a trick of the lightYes!<br />
you are truly seeing it! it never happened before this,<br />
all the ppl on the "perfection list" are removed!<br />
finally they have paled, withered, shriveled and died a quiet painless death. <br />
with this dramatic bomb I Bid you -whoever reads this- aduei.<br />
au revoir<br />
Bon voyage<br />
adios<br />
hasta la vistaJasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-40800289812779884432009-12-11T02:39:00.001+03:002009-12-11T02:39:05.513+03:00Once, not too long ago, though it sure feels like it, I was called a hypocrite<br />
I didn't understand why, but a year later I understood<br />
It wasn't that I said something and did another, no.<br />
It was because I saw a situation I considered wrong<br />
and then I found myself in a similar one and didn't see anything wrong with it. <br />
Point is; don't preach about something you haven't the foggiest idea about.<br />
***<br />
Apparently Dunhill's are the best cigarettes <br />
Davidoff's are the worst<br />
Marlboro's are a solid trademark<br />
And indonesians make the worst cigarettes<br />
I dunno if it's true, <br />
That's what I've been told<br />
***<br />
I hate it when beautiful people (namely guys) smoke<br />
It breaks my heart<br />
I want to say: noooooooo give that cig to Ugly standing next to you!<br />
***<br />
To be brutally honest: I fantasize about smoking; even tho I know its unhealthy<br />
Notice I said 'fantasize' as in I have NEVER put a cigarette to my lips<br />
Everytime I want to try it I worry about two things:<br />
1- that I'll like it<br />
2- that I'll lose all respect for myself<br />
Which is why I don't and hopefully won't ever smoke <br />
***<br />
I don't want to marry a smoker<br />
Simply because the furniture, clothes, body odor, bags, basically everything will stink of smoke<br />
It'll be like making out with an ashtray<br />
And inhaling toxic fumes in a lab. <br />
Oh and smoking includes: shisha, m3assil, cigarettes, cigars, pipe and hash<br />
***<br />
I just had icecream at an icecream bar at a wedding! It was awesome!<br />
Then to balance I got fruit salad later. <br />
***<br />
I feel pretty<br />
Oh so pretty<br />
Tonight I actually 'felt' beautiful<br />
Ma sha Allah<br />
Its amazing what blowidrying my hair does to my confidence<br />
I feel 'hot'!<br />
*giggle*<br />
Makeup too! Its like it gave me power. Added to the dress. <br />
I feel like I could withstand any blow<br />
(Well not really but right now I believe so)<br />
Though I could you know, withstand any effort to squash me<br />
Because I'm no longer a soldier fighting someone else's battle<br />
I'm a warrior and the war I go into is for truth love and honor<br />
I don't need to fight to survive. <br />
I exude power, calm and love<br />
***<br />
Love conquers all (emotions that is, God conquers all!)<br />
*** <br />
Thinking of sleeping in my dress, <br />
but it aint that comfortable, so no, gotta get up and to bed in 'jammies<br />
***<br />
I bid you <br />
Bonne nuit<br />
Au revioreJasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-34132469677557358622009-12-10T21:58:00.002+03:002009-12-11T12:28:18.079+03:00scattered thoughtsI wish I was comfortable in my own skin<br />
I never was and never will be apparently<br />
***<br />
I'm pretty but not beautiful<br />
Smart but not witty<br />
And until someone geniuenly convinces me otherwise I can't seem to see it any other way. <br />
***<br />
I've never been carefree, but maybe careless<br />
I'm sweet and never callous<br />
***<br />
I have yet to meet the man of my dreams<br />
The one who's imperfections fit in the puzzle of my life<br />
The one who was created for me<br />
I'm not daft in thinking that it'll be easy that there won't be tears and pain<br />
Because I know there'll be love and joy to eclipse the sorrow that may descend<br />
***<br />
It's been said-mainly by me- that I am contradictory<br />
In truth I am very much so, I might hate something with vengance yet love it with equal fervor<br />
I might forbid myself something yet yearn for it feverishly<br />
***<br />
I've been thin but never skinny<br />
I only notice that because of how much I loathe how I look now<br />
That I have now willpower to get up and excersize<br />
That even when I found the solution hurdles are thrown in my path<br />
I love pilates, it helped me grow emotionally and physically<br />
I had the perfect body<br />
But pilates was 250 a class<br />
3 times a week meaning 750 riyals a week and 3000 riyals a month<br />
Money I don't have (hate)<br />
So I choose horseback riding<br />
It was 50 riyals a day 3 times a week = 150 riyals a week 600 riyals a month<br />
Verrrrry reasonable!!!!<br />
But nooooooooooo<br />
Baby bro HAD to hate it, my sis's horse got sold and she didn't like any other<br />
My mom was ok either way<br />
And dad well didn't 'feel' like it anymore <br />
Apparently the whole family bar mom saw that sitting infront of the tv<br />
And getting fatter and lazier was better<br />
God I hate this. <br />
***<br />
I wish I were breathtakingly enchanting<br />
*** <br />
I wish I had coherent thoughts <br />
But all that's there is babble.Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-35508644778547526192009-12-02T14:10:00.001+03:002009-12-02T14:10:47.093+03:00My Dream<div>I Want To Be One With The Heavens, on a bike.<br />i want a Kawasaki!!!</div><br /><script type="text/javascript" src="http://widgets.clearspring.com/o/49873d99d1f20d05/4b164b36164d4d30/49873d99d1f20d05/ab29b8bc/widget.js"></script>Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-45548511902241242882009-11-23T21:53:00.002+03:002009-11-23T21:53:44.228+03:00My Favorite Quote<em>John Keating: We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. To quote from Whitman, "O me! O life!... of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless... of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?" Answer. That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. That the powerful play *goes on* and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?</em> ~Dead Poets SocietyJasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-91730024974497834512009-11-19T14:12:00.000+03:002009-11-19T14:12:59.278+03:00I LOVE...Stephanie Laurens!!!!!!<br />
<br />
she's amazing!<br />
<br />
Here's a paragraph from her book Tangled Reins :<br />
<br />
<em>"Almost instantly Buchanan was bodily plucked from her and thrown roughly against the wall. In</em><br />
<em></em><br />
<em>considerable surprise he slid down to sit on the floor, his legs splayed out in front of him and an idiotic </em><em>look on his face. Desborough, adjusting the set of his coat before offering his arm to Dorothea, turned at </em><em>the last moment to say, 'Be thankful it was me and notPeterborough, Walsingham, or, God forbid, </em><em>Hazelmere. Any of those three and you would be nursing rather more bruises and, very likely, a few </em><em>broken bones as well. I suggest, Mr Buchanan, that you trouble Miss Darent no longer.' And, with that, </em><em>he ushered a deeply grateful Dorothea back into the ballroom.</em><br />
<em>The upshot was that Hazelmere's friends never, ever, left her unattended again, whether in the ballroom, </em><em>the Park, or any other gathering of the fashionable."</em><br />
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she makes me laugh, makes me cry and has confrmed my beleif that a book is the best partner one could ever have!Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-76661231628878946812009-11-12T17:02:00.000+03:002009-11-12T17:02:25.709+03:00White Horse- Taylor Swift<span style="color: purple;">Say you're sorry</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;"></span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">That face of an angel comes out</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Just when you need it to</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">As I pace back and forth all this time</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">'Cause I honestly believed in you</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Holding on,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">The days drag on</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Stupid girl</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">I should have known, I should have known</span><br />
<br />
<span style="color: purple;">That I'm not a princess</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">This ain't a fairytale</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Lead her up the stairwell</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">This ain't Hollywood,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">This is a small town</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">I was a dreamer before you went and let me down</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Now its too late for you and your White Horse,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">To come around.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="color: purple;">Baby I was naíve,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Got lost in your eyes</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">I never really had a chance,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">My mistake, I didn't know,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">To be in love you had to fight to get the uppper hand</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">I had so many dreams about you and me.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Happy endings</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Now I know</span><br />
<br />
<span style="color: purple;">I'm not a princess</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">This ain't a fairytale</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Lead her up the stairwell</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">This ain't Hollywood,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">This is a small town</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">I was a dreamer before you went and let me down</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Now its too late for you and your White Horse,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">To come around.</span><br />
<br />
<span style="color: purple;">And there you are on your knees</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Begging for forgiveness,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Begging for me</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Just like I always wanted,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">But I'm so sorry</span><br />
<br />
<span style="color: purple;">Cause I'm not your princess</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">This ain't our fairytale</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">I'm gonna find someone, someday</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Who might actually treat me well.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">This is a big world,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">That was a small town</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">There in my rear view mirror,</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Disappearing now.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">And it's too late for you and your White Horse</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Now its too late for you and your White Horse</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">To catch me now.</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Try and catch me now</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">Oh</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">It's too late</span><br />
<span style="color: purple;">To catch me now</span><br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
God this is so true<br />
It hurts that it is!Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-77786946988742265012009-10-30T18:06:00.000+03:002009-11-01T14:21:24.263+03:00You make it hard to love you.You make it hard to love you.<br>You effin sad person<br>You make it hard to like you<br>You weak weakling<br>You're weak inside and out<br>Your issues have issues<br>Your issues' issues have issues<br>You are the impersonation of loss<br>I can't hate you and I can't like you<br>You make it hard to love you.<p><p>30/10/2009<br>6:06 pmJasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-8685244316497105872009-10-28T20:06:00.001+03:002009-10-28T20:08:51.773+03:00My wedding song<object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/qnr4WKPGSPo&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&hd=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/qnr4WKPGSPo&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&hd=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-23463514073486528842009-10-27T19:03:00.000+03:002009-10-27T19:04:18.494+03:00I have realized that I trulyI have realized that I truly<br>Samja neho belkol neho!!!!!!!!<br>Life makes absolutely no sense<br>People make no sense<br>Love and hate make no sense<br>Happiness and sadness make no sense<br>I don't understand anything anymore.<br>Breathing and suffocating collide<br>Heartbreaking and soulpatching run together<br>Life and death interchange<br>Fighting and peace making aren't speaking to each other<br>The world is on fire and yet it's cold as iced water<br>I could go on forever and ever<br>But see I'm energized and restless those two come together<br>In a marrige designed by humans<br>Who forgot what holy and pure is.<br>Who have made everything crude and pointless<br>Even laughter is now humorless<br>So yes.<br>I am restless filled with energy that I can't explain.<br>I want to vent it out but I've failed miserably.<br>Strength I never knew I had I cannot contain<br>My only entertainment is in reading some novel that leaves me wonderig <br>if such things exist.<br>Or have we killed all truth with our vanity and slain purity with our <br>ignorance?!<br>We know of sinning but not repentance<br>Even when we do we Take it for granted<br>I'm stopping now for I have ranted<br>The boredom to death and now feel a good amount of calmness so I'll go <br>breathe it and dance to it's tune<br>I'm immune<br>To stupidity and indirectness<br>If I wanted you I would have acted<br>But apparently the world is childish and immature<br>Selfish and bored<br>Am I the only mature person in this lost world?!<br>Deep breathe exhalation I'm not damaged<br>Scarred beyond anyones imagination<br>But I've risen from the ashes<br>Like the pheonix<br>I've got secret magic.<br>Sit and wonder<br>You'll never have it.<p><p>Random random<br>Drama drama drama!!!!<p>Love y'all<br>Peace<p>I am destined to be a rapper :)<br>6:40 pm<br>27-10-2009Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-72697648028263645082009-10-25T22:39:00.000+03:002009-10-25T22:39:34.862+03:00My favorite song!!!!!!!FireFlies<br />
Owl City<br />
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<a href="http://www.lyricsmode.com/" target="_blank">Lyrics</a> | <a href="http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/owl_city/" target="_blank">Owl City lyrics</a> - <a href="http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/o/owl_city/fireflies.html" target="_blank">Fireflies lyrics</a>Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-88212186483740871422009-10-24T16:39:00.001+03:002009-11-01T10:02:42.084+03:00Got some rainGot some rain<br />
Got some sun<br />
And I've smiled to everyone<br />
I'm on top of the world<br />
I feel as pretty as diamonds and pearls<br />
Love is here<br />
Love is now<br />
I'm too happy I can't frown<br />
But I'm missing you.<br />
Lulu, I really miss u.<br />
Allah is fair.<br />
So we'll survive life<br />
And thrive<br />
I swear.Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-3711863132383895692009-10-08T18:47:00.001+03:002009-10-08T19:02:30.373+03:00something im ponderingI finished my tale and looked at him and he was as still as a statue; then without warning he pulled me into his arms and hugged me tight, I started crying onto his shirt trying to get rid of all the hurt and pain.<br />“Oscar? I’m sorry, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to say all this” I sad between sobs.<br />“Shhhh honey, it’s okay, I’m here, don’t cry” he kept me in his arms, rocking me gently.Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-11442132100266797212009-09-26T19:38:00.001+03:002009-09-26T19:38:33.725+03:00Absolutely positively happy!Dunno why?<br>Maybe it's cause I saw my brother and bestfriend for a good 30minuyes <br>since Ramadan ?<br>No wonder my eid was sucky.<br>Anywhooooo guess what he got me as a pre-eidgift?!<br>The latest album for OUTLANDISH!!!! the greatest band on the face of <br>the EARTH!<br>It's called Sound of a Rebel<br>check it out you guys it is Awesome!<br>Love you mera bhai!!<br>You're my favorite Dost.<br>Allah yehfathak ya rab ameen!<br>Peace out everybody!<br>Oh and a belated EID MUBARAK!<br>may Allah bless all ur days with laughter joy and love<p>P.s going to relish this happiness before more<br>Drama<br>Drama<br>Drama!<br> that is bound to arrive!<p>Bye for now!<br>A happy diamond!Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-62380828556258868492009-09-25T01:12:00.001+03:002009-09-25T01:12:23.777+03:00LalalalalalaLalalalalala<br>That's what I feel like today<br>Lalalalalala<br>I feel like a helium ballon high and floaty<br>December 31 2008 3:06 pmJasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-74793317885475545862009-09-25T01:06:00.002+03:002009-09-25T01:07:04.405+03:00I need hot food!I need hot food!Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-30137281119646088422009-09-25T01:06:00.001+03:002009-09-25T01:06:53.735+03:00I hate my lifeI hate my life<br>Wow! Something new and different for me yay! Ugh.<br>I realized I am nothing; I add nothing and I subtract nothing<br>I give nothing I take nothing<br>I gain nothing I lose nothing (unless you count my soul which is <br>breaking apart sliver by sliver)<br>I inhale nothing I exhale nothing<br>I can't laugh nor can I cry<br>I am barely living that I wish I could just die<br>I want to leave this wretched lifestyle I'm in and start all over<br>Laugh love and live<br>...<br>What adds nothing subtracts nothing?<br>Nothing = me.<br>3:11 am<br>4-sept-2009Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-87744285911299125232009-09-23T06:43:00.001+03:002009-09-23T06:43:59.169+03:00I have a dillema I hope you - the wonderful people who read my blog- could help me with.I have a dillema I hope you - the wonderful people who read my blog- <br>could help me with.<br>I'm getting and eid gift from my best friend, and i've been given the <br>choice between a blackberry or an iPhone and I chose blackberry, then <br>we were talking and he mentioned cameras and I said I was wishing for <br>a professional one and he -may ALLAH bless him ma sha ALLAH- said 3ala <br>keyfik. Al3eed Hada utlob we atmanna so what should I do?<br>Blackberry or camera?<br>Put in mind that I'm not allowed to carry a camera phone in the <br>wonderful-being sarcastic- university of mine, so I'd be leaving BB at <br>home.<br>Please respond!!<br>Love u all<p>Miss rough diamond.Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-56884580273735302982009-09-23T03:51:00.000+03:002009-09-23T03:52:22.025+03:00HeartacheHeartache<br>There's a whole in my heart<br>Or is there an empty place<br>Where it's hollow<br>Air flows through it making it cold<br>And filling it with sorrow<br>There's an echo<br>In my chest<br>Of The heartbeat that manages to escape the vise that is crushing my <br>heart<br>I wish I could laugh but all I'm doing is crying<br>(how can it be eid if I'm thinking of dying?)<br>I want to stand tall and scare away my fears<br>But all I do is lie down under my covers and shed tears<br>I hate with the venom of a vampire<br>I hate with blindness that causes fire<br>I want to breathe without tasting blood<br>I want to laugh without the tears that flood<br>I wish I was somewhere else<br>I wish I was away from this evil place<br>I want to have my own world<br>Where I would plant roses and lilac and lilies<br>Where I'd make marmalade and cupcakes and jellies<br>A place where i'd dress up as a princess or a fairy<br>Read stories to children and eat strawberries<br>I want a world where there's no war of who's in control<br>I want to be free as free as the butterfly<br>To be able to fly from flower to flower filling the world with <br>laughter and color<br>Infusing it with sweetness and joy<br>I want I want I want...<br>What I want is simple what I want is right<br>What I want is acheivable if only I could fight<br>Fight the shackles that hold me in place<br>The ones that burn my wrists and ankles<br>The hatred that burns my heart is because of him<br>My own personal warden<br>The one God gave me as a test<br>He-the warden- is manipulative and sneaky<br>Controlling and has no mercy<br>Selfish and cruel<br>He does nothing if it has no personal gain to him<br>I know I said "I nothing him"; but he's alwas in my face, poking me <br>with his warden's stick<br>Provoking me to react; I dont at first<br>But after being shoved into a corner spat at and bruised<br>I have to react; howl scream and shout:<br>I hate you<br>You evil monster<br>Why are you here?<br>Leave me alone<br>He snickers them smiles in the smile he tricks everyone with<br>I cannot leave you my love I cannot stop because I love you<br>No one will ever love you more than me<br>You must beleive that<br>For I do not lie<br>He walks sways his heels clicking with his steps<br>NO! my mind responds do not beleive him he's a liar. You will be loved <br>Someone is out there looking for you<br>He'll come, be patient, be hopeful<br>The tears that clogged my throat fell from my eyes<br>Like rivers<br>I turned to the east<br>Put my forehead to the cold prison cell floor<br>and cried my heart out to the one who created us all<br>Oh Allah send him please<br>Send the one who'll love me and cherish me here and in heaven too<br>Send him soon<p><br>He's not the solution my mind tells me<br>I know he isn't but I want to know what it feels like to be loved I <br>reply<p>Oh Allah I continue to pray<br>I can't bear this life<br>Where I dread the day<br>I want to die<br>Take me to you<br>I don't want to cry<br>Take me where there's no jealousy or hate<br>Where cruelty is unheard of<br>Where laughter and love reign<br>Where there is no pain<p>Oh Allah give me the strength to forgive the weak who poke at me<br>Give me the power to forget the ill and evil that has been done to me<br>Be my strength for I have none<br>Be my wealth so I needn't need anyone<p>September 23 2009<br>3:35 amJasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-1563423637156239212009-09-14T00:06:00.000+03:002009-09-14T04:55:10.213+03:00I want to get rid of youI want to get rid of you<br>To be free of you<br>To be able to breathe without your suffocating presence<br>Even when u aren't here you manage to choke the life out of me<br>I despise you too much to waste my time on hating you.<br>I nothing you<br>And that's what kills you.<br>Goodbye you<br>I hope your venom gets sucked before you prey on someone else.Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-78935414954852700252009-08-31T13:38:00.000+03:002009-08-31T14:32:08.340+03:00A recap... Slash thatA recap... Slash that, im not Going over what I've been through <br>before! It was horrible the first time around, no need to revisit <br>horribleville.<p>Here're the highlights of the past month:<br>1-I went crazy fast on a jetski at aldurra in my red gap jeans<br>It was Awesome, Ima buy myself a jetski before I turn 25! In sha Allah<br>2- on the said jetski I Attempted a tight turn while going so very <br>fast and obviously flipped 360 into the water IT WAS GREAT my cousin <br>and I were cracking up! Dude it was fantastic! They thought we were <br>nuts!<br>3-while we were laughing our butts off her crocs was floating away and <br>I swam towards it like a sloth and everybody started laughing at us <br>because we weren't going after our jetski instead! Our other two <br>cousins got it for us.<br>4- when I got to shore Noor asked me where my glasses were, i didn't <br>realize they were gone until that moment!<br>5- my 20th birthday 1600 riyal glasses are now residing at the bottom <br>of aldurra's waters!<br>6-I am now wearing contacts daily!<br>7- went to Makkah a few days ago and tried the public transportation <br>there it was FANTASTIC ma sha Allah! Very organized, clean and <br>coordinated!<br>8- am in Love with Indian everything!<br>I'm thinking of going to university on the first day in a shirwal-kamis<br>9-shahid kapur is absolutely AWESOME!<br>10-Bollywood kicks Hollywood's ASS!<br>11- I want to see the following movies (after Ramadan of course!):<br>The soloist<br>Inglorious basterds<br>Public enemies<br>Cloudy with a chance of meatballs<br>500 days of summer<br>Fighting<br>Jodha Akbar<br>Mujshi dosti karogi<br>And many others!<p>5:01 pm<br>27 august 2009Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-11060013523846905582009-07-02T14:08:00.000+03:002009-07-02T19:22:47.916+03:00If only...If only...<p>If only I wasn't so emotional<br>I wouldn't have built this wall<p>If I was courageous<br>I would stand tall<p>Hate is burning like acid through my veins<br>Inflicting excruciating pain<p>I don't understand why or how<br>But I do know now<p>That my life is a play<br>A game of pretend<p>And it will extend<br>Until my body is one with the earth and my soul is in heaven.Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-32225198822818433842009-06-28T18:40:00.000+03:002009-06-28T20:51:44.070+03:00Happy stuffToday was my 2nd day as a trainee at the IMC hospital.<br>This week i'm at phlebotomy. It's loads of fun and I like that I'm <br>interacting with all sorts of people.<br>There are kids who scream and give migranes and others who cry silently.<p>Some old men are really nice they prayed for me Allah yewafigik<br>Today I met the first young guy he got onto my friends nerves. Ga3ad <br>yestahbil. I wamted to laugh but didn't cuz he'd probably think I was <br>flirting.<p>The people in phlebotomy are Awesome.<br>There's Fatima and Sabreena. Renel is the guy who orders stuff for the <br>labs and then there are various porters who send the samples we've <br>taken down to the lab to have tests run on them.<br>I never thought I'd have this much fun working at a hospital.<p>Al7amdulila!<br> byeJasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-28512226823833013122009-06-28T15:06:00.000+03:002009-06-28T16:53:21.644+03:00So many things run through my head simeltaneouslySo many things run through my head simeltaneously<br>Hate and love race through my veins side by side<br>I want to stand tall yet cower and hide<br>Contradictions so many of them lead my life<br>I don't care but I do<br>I want to cry<br>But my heart is ice<br>I think I don't have feelings but then my heart beats slower and I <br>can't breathe<br>The tears that never came block my throat.Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7021788953684238006.post-51000785106078167522009-06-27T19:10:00.000+03:002009-06-27T19:12:50.766+03:00What is it about you that makes me mad?What is it about you that makes me mad?<br>What is it that makes me sad?<br>Is it your arrogance?<br>Or it is the fact that you r as ignorant as a blind man about colors?<br>You have no idea how horrible you are<br>You live in the illusion of perfection<br>You think you're god's gift to mankind<br>You think I'm a possesion of yours<br>I'm not!<br>I'm a creation of God's<br>And to Him I'll ultimately belong<br>I'm a free spirit<br>Bound in an earthly vessel<br>I don't belong here, I belong there<br>In paradise.<br>So don't ask me of things I cannot give you<br>My heart isn't mine to give<br>Leave me alone<br>Please:<br>Let<br>me<br>Go!<br>Stop this insane obsession!<br>I<br>Don't<br>Want<br>You!<br>Get<br>That<br>Through<br>Your<br>Head!<br>Goodbye!!<p><br>P.S it's not you! Don't obsess!Jasmine Teahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06440072675095729559noreply@blogger.com0