My recent addiction

My recent addiction
Stand up comedy
Seriously it is AWESOME
Of course not all stand up comics are funny...some are just nasty!!

Here's a list of the best comics:
Robin Williams

That's it, he is the best, everyone else is in this other list of
funny people.
I have yet to hear someone who is funnier than him, he is so funny
( ma sha ) that I can hear his routine 100 times and still be in
stiches!

My other list of ok funny comics:
John Stewart
Jasper carrot
Lewis black
Chris rock
Dane cook
Steven colbert
Paul brant
George carlin (sometimes)
Eddie izzard
George lopez
And other people but these people are pretty good.

Done with 75% of inorganic biochemistry
Pray for me please
I have the final on Sunday and I NEED a full mark 40/40!!!

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Heartbreaking news

Heartbreaking news
I thought I was fine, that the extra chocolaty chocoladte fudge
brownie wouldn't affect me,
I walk a lot and eat healthy
But apparently I was doing something wrong cuz "the line" is no longer
there!!!
I just noticed today!!
The line being the one I aqquired last year after 6-9 months of
intensive pilates.
The one that gave me hope that one day I'll have a body ad perfect as
Fergie's.
But it's gone and it's not coming back as quick as I want it!!
I mean cmon 6-9 months and then it dissapears??!! It's not fair nor
right!!!
Sigh!
Today I did 110 sit-ups, yesterday and the day before I did 150-160.
Which is nothing compared to last year me, I used to do 250-300.
Weep!
I'm trying to get to it. But I have to get rid of the negativity I'm
feeling.
I'm gna be positive and I will do 250 today in sha Allah.
Peace out.

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صحيت من النوم فجأة

Forwarded

لا تقف كثيرا عند أخطاء ماضيك .. لأنها ستحيل حاضرك جحيما ومستقبلك حطاما .

.... يكفيك منها وقفة اعتبار تعطيك دفعة جديدة في طريق الحق والصواب

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صحيت من النوم فجأة




شفت نور غريب !!

المشكلة أن نور الغرفة مسكر

شفت الساعة على 3 ونص الفجر

طيب .. النور هذا كله من وين ؟؟؟

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تفاجأت لما شفت يدي نصها بالجدار

طلعتها بسرعة وانا خايف جلست اشوفها

دخلتها مره ثانيه بالجدار .. تدخل !!!!!!!!

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سمعت صوت ضحك

جلست التفت لقيت اخوي نايم !!!

قمت من السرير وانا خايف رحت اصحيه

بس ما يرد علي

رحت لغرفة أمي

أحاول أصحي أبوي

أبغى أحد يرد علي ماردو

رحت لأمي أحاول اصحيها فجأة قامت من النوم !!!!!

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هي قامت من النوم بس ماكلمتني

كانت تسمي ' بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم ' وتكررها ..

قومت ابوي من النوم قالت له قوم قوم

ابغى اروح اتطمن على الأولاد..

أبوي جاوبها باستغراب ' مو وقته الحين خليني انام وبكرهـ يصير خير '

لكن باصرارها قام من النوم مستغرب وراحو سوى

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جلست أصرخ أمييي أبوييي

بس محد يرد !!!

مسكت ثيابها ابغاها تسمعني

بس ماحست !!!

جلست امشي وراها لحد ما وصلت غرفة النوم

دخلو غرفة النوم وشغلو اللمبات

ماكانت تفرق معاي لأن الدنيا منوره أصلا

بسسس تفاجأت لما شفت شي غرييييييب

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شفت جسمي !!!

أيوه جسمي انا

جلست أطالع في نفسي لقيتني صرت اثنين

قلت في نفسي مين هذا ؟ وكيف هذا يشبهني !!!

جلست أضرب في نفسي أبغى أصحى من هذا الحلم الكئيييب

لكن ما صحيييت

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أبوي قال ' يالله شفتي انهم نايمين خلينا نمشي '

لكن أمي ما هديت راحت عند اللي كان نايم مكاني

قالت محمد قووم محمد قووم رد علي

بس ما يرد !!!

حاولت أكثر من مرره وفجأة بدأت دمووع أبي تتساقط

أبي القوي الذي لم أرى في حياتي دموعه رأيتها اليوم

بدأ الصراخ يعلو المكان .. صحى أخي من النوم قال ' ايش صاير '

أمي قالت له وهي تصرخ ' أخووك ماات محمد ماات ' وهي تبكي بحرقة

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ازداد الصراخ

رحت لأمي قلتلها لا تبكي أنا هنا شوفيني!!

مافي احد بيرد علي ليييه

جلست أصرخ أنا موجووود شوفووو

بس مافي حد بيرررد

جلست أصرخ يااااارب يااااااارب يخلص الحلم اللي انا فييه

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سمعت صوت يأتي من بعيد وكان يعلو شيء فشيء

حتى سمعت قوله تعالى : ((
لقد كنت في غفلة من هذا فكشفنا عنك غطاءك فبصرك اليوم حديد
لَقَدْ كُنتَ فِي غَفْلَةٍ مِّنْ هَذَا فَكَشَفْنَا عَنكَ غِطَاءكَ))

فجأة في اثنين مسكوني بس هما مش من البشر

خفت !!

جلست أصرخ أتركووني أتركووني

أنتو مييين ؟؟ وايش تبغو ؟؟

قالو : ' أحنا حراسك لحد القبر '
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قلت أنا مامت أنا حي
لييه تودوني القبر أتركووني !!
أنا أحس و أتكلم و أشوف لسى ما مت
ردو علي بابتسامه

قالو ' عجيب أمركم يالبشر تظنون أن الموت نهاية الحياة ولا تدرون أن ماكنتم تعيشون فيه هو حلم قصير ينتهي عندما تموتون '
مازالو يسحبون فيني لحد القبر
واحنا بالطريق شفت ناس بتبكي وناس بتضحك و ناس بتصرخ
وكل واحد معاه اثنين زيي
سألتهم ليييه يسوو كيذا ؟؟
قالو ' الناس هذول عارفين مصيرهم منهم من كان على ضلال '
قاطعتهم وانا خائف ' يعني بيروحو النار !!!! '
قالو ' نـعـم '
وأكملو حديثهم ' واللي يضحك هذا رايح الجنة '
رديت بسرعة ' وأنا رايح فيين ؟؟؟؟؟ '
قالو ' أنت كنت شويه تمشي صح و شويه تمشي خطأ
شويه تتوب وترجع اليوم الثاني تعصي وماكنت واضح مع نفسك
وهتضل كيذا تايه '
قاطعتهم و أنا خائف ' يعني اييييييييش يعني انا برووح الناار '

ردو علي ' رحمة الله واسعة و الرحلة طويلة '



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التفت وأنا خايف شفت أهلي أبوي عمي أخواني أقاربي كلهم



كانو حاملييني بصندوق رحت لهم ركض قلتلهم ' ادعو لي '



لكن مافي حد رد علي منهم من كان يبكي ومنهم من كان حزيين



رحت لأخوي قلت له انتبه من الدنيا وفتنها لاتغريييك



كنت أتمنى لو أنه يسمعني



شدوني الملكيين لقبري ونوموني فوق الجسد حقي



شفت ابوي وهو يرمي التراب فوقي



شفت اخواني وهما يرمو التراب



شفت الناس كلها ترمي التراب فوقي



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تمنيت لو اني مكانهم في الدنيا كان تبت



كان صليت الفجر أمس



كان دعييت ربي كل يوم



كان جددت توبتي كل يوم



كان بطلت معااصي



جلست اصرخ ' يااانااااس انتبهووو تغرركم الدنيا '



تمنييت لو حد يسمعني



فهل سمعتني أنت ؟ ؟ ؟

Sugar rush

Last week when I was sugar-craving (cuz u know what was coming along :p)
I shoved 2-3 cupcakes from Goodies into my mouth like I was coming out
of a hunger strike!!
But since I live with other people I had to be considerate to them so
I had to leave a few and keep my cravings at bay. It was sooo
dissapointing when they finished! Then because my cravings got worse I
HAD to make my own cupcakes!! But due to the fact I had and still have
finals I had to wait, then when I finally made the cake the craving
was gone and you know what came, now I can't look at a cake or
chocolate without having guilt claw itself at me :p
Though I should point out that this is the first time this EVER
happened to me. I was very much suprised! Plus the mood swings, boy oh
boy, they are weird! I hadn't felt so odd in my life!
Giggle!
The Sugar-crave is over,scale-phobia is in!!
Signed,
The.Insomniac
P.S pray for me everyone,final lab metabolism 2 awaits me at 11 am
today and I have been tossing and turning all night, jittery for some
unknown reason!! I need to get a full mark in it!! Ya rab!

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Bubbling chocolate fudge.

I'm entertaining the thought of chocolate honey cigars. It'd be very
interesting and not to mention yummy too! And they wouldn't be bad for
my health either, they'd be smoke (tobacco) free and edible!
They'd fulfill my desire to be outrageous and witty.
Oh and Thank you anonymous, your comments are heartwarming and very
much appreciated. I'm glad you liked my writing.
(gracefully curtsying)
May the peace and blessings of Allah be upon all of you who have read
my blog, commented and enjoyed my work.
I love you all.

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Home.

I used to think that Falasteen is my country until I lived in Saudi
Arabia.
As a child in America my family and I were very active in the islamic
community, we'd attend conventions and concerts and sing songs about
Palistine, I heard the song "raji3 3a bladi" more than once this week
and I found out I already knew the lyrics by heart because it was a
big part of my childhood the song simply says I'm going back to my
country, the land of AlAqsa I'm going back home. And I truly beleived
that home was Alquds. Maybe it is in a way, its freedom will
symbolize peace and unity between us.
All I know is that I am starting to remember this and I'm a bit
homesick.
12 January 2009
10:10 pm

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Sigh or cry!

Sadly this is our reality!

Thoughts Running in Her Head...

I look too innocent she said to her reflection
I want to scream
If I hack my long hair off
Will I look like I’m mean?
Oh what I’d give to wear a dress by Alexander McQueen
Maybe this is all a dream
Someday I’ll wake up
And this will be no more than a scene in a movie
Where the boy tells the girl:
I’ve been waiting for you
And she replies
I love you too
Images of the life she could have imprint themselves in her mind
Whenever she feels sad, they rewind
The day will come she talked to her reflection once more
When the world wont be cruel to me, it’ll be kind
And the bruises I have wont hurt. No longer sore
When that happens
I won’t just laugh
I’ll roar
I may look innocent she said again
But that’s just skin
Underneath there’s more.

1:57 pm January 7, 2009

Me...

Slowly
The pain in my heart subsided
Then like a freight train it came back strong and loud
Shocking me to the core
One day I’m okay
Then I hear a love song
And I become sad and heartbroken
I haven’t been in love … yet
But my mind makes it seem like the most amazing thing in the world
I see the people around me who are married or on the way to
They aren’t as happy as my mind pictures people in love should be
So I start getting the pre-crying heart pains
I feel so tiny
So lonely
So lost
Maybe it’s because of the media that messed up my mind so?
Beats me.
Though I don’t think so!
I sleep and all my dreams are so bad,
I wake up thanking God for reality
Yesterday I dreamt one of the most bizarre dreams I ever had.
Nothing made sense!
It wasn’t a bad one, but it was truly messed up
Made me want to cry
Because it made me wish for prince charming so bad
Where is he I wonder
Why isn’t he here?
Why am I here writing this,
When I could be dancing with him on my favorite song?
I guess he’s on his way
Probably got caught up by bandits.
But he’s going to come
I’m sure
God is kind, He won’t let me stay sad any longer.
That’s why I love Him
He’s my savior
My solace when everyone leaves me and goes
He’s the one that truly understands me
So… I Love you Allah.


Friday
4-5-2008
9:24 pm
On my bed. Wondering!
Still wondering 6-Jan-09 1:23 am

My Bubble Burst

I thought that if I was super good, super sweet, super kind… I’d get married. I’d get my prince charming. Apparently I was wrong on two things. A) it doesn’t make a difference and its not magic! B) there ain’t no prince charming. Regardless. I still want to get married. Because, I believe even though marriage is full of responsibilities, it has some fun too. I mean we don’t have boyfriend girlfriend relations in Islam, but we do have movies, music, books and TV shows from all around the world showing us the –yes glossed and unrealistic but still tempting- relationships, the happiness the sadness, the happily-ever-after(s) and what am I supposed to do about it? What can I do about it? Simply absolutely nothing. All I can do is sit and dream and keep wishing that I might get a slice of that reality. Feminists and the women of my family, would kill me if they heard this. They’d say that there is much more to life that getting a guy, that they aren’t worth the effort and you’ll get that headache one day so why ask for it now? Well because I am tired of waiting I am tired of sitting around while I know that my friends and people around me are getting a piece of the cake, yes it’s wrong and forbidden in Islam –the whole dating thing- and Allah doesn’t allow it and it grants sins, breaks hearts and so on and so forth, but I want it the right way, I want it with the guy I marry, I don’t want him to be serious except about certain things like: monogamy ((me and only me playa !!)) and respect, other than that, I want us to be goofy and silly together, I want us to go bungee jumping and sky diving, try extreme sports and extreme fun and adventure, at the same time he’d enjoy sitting beside me in our quiet living room just listening to the world pass us by. But basically I want him to have fun with me. Yeah I want him to have fun with his friends and be social, but still I don’t want a guy that would be bored by me or get nervy and jumpy if he’s not out with the guys. I hate how I sound.
Recently I’ve been having depression attacks… suddenly my heart feels like theres this giant hand squishing it… it really hurts and I feel like I just want to curl up under my sheets and cry my eyes out. But I don’t for many reasons, mainly because I want to end this feeling, I don’t want to hang my hopes on some unknown future, and I don’t want to rely on a person to make me happy because I for one know, that people are the biggest disappointment in life. You can only rely on yourself to make you happy, because otherwise, your hopes – most probably, almost all the time- get crushed like an ant, right after they are belittled and made fun of.
It’s not the whole -I don’t have a guy- that’s bothering me, it’s everything. The list of things that hurt and anger me is really long. But there are certain things that are in bold and highlighted, while others are just on the list and wouldn’t bother me if they were on their own, but they get stacked up, those little things, and in they wind along with the big issues make me explode and shatter into so many pieces, I think I lost some when I put myself back together so maybe that’s why I feel hurt, there are so many gaps that need filling, so many pieces of me that are missing, all the scars and wounds that are barely healing get picked at constantly, never to truly recover and match the rest of my skin.

10:32 pm 11-3-2008
Actually this is how I feel almost everyday 4:36 pm 6-Jan-09

Sigh

Sigh
I am extremely bothered at the moment
Reading "she said u were ok, not photogenic" is irrevecobly
disconcerting cuz I know I'm not, I'm videogenic but it just hit a
nerve, it's like saying you're not beautiful. That ur beauty is not
good enough to be captured on camera!!
Maybe I'm reading too much into this maybe I'm not.
I like how I look I honestly do,
But this world is only nice to the dropdead gorgeous (boys and girls)
people.
I mean I've seen really ugly (no offense) people being treated kindly
as in sympathy but for the normal looking people who's personalities
are AMAZING they're overlooked.
I'm not claiming to be unsuperficial, I am. (I like good looking
people especially actors/actresses)

But I am normal looking that's how God created me.
I know I'm smart and funny and cute.
But if I don't open my mouth and talk you wouldn't look twice at me,
I'm loud and i laugh without inhibitions and i skip on public and
express myself with pureness of heart.
I don't mind talking in public or laughing or vein overjoyed that my
happiness effects everyoe around me.
I am me, and until my prince charming (the one who'll appreciate,
respect, love and understand me) comes I'm not bending over or
changing for anybody.

I know no one asked me to, but I'm
Not waiting for anyone to do so.

Sigh
Seriously hungry but fasting, I think it's 3ashoura.

Peace out.
January 6 2008
3:26 pm

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Me

I have known for a while that my vice is that I am an extreemly
impatient person.
Seriously it's a really bad thing
Because u know when they say good things come to those who wait
But waiting is HARD excruciatingly so!!
It's like someone saying I'm going to give you a new laptop with all
the specs you've been dreaming of but not tell u when, just soon. And
even though it'll probably in the next week u can't wait. Ur jittery
and buzzy and can't think straight.
U may end up wishing it were a surprise. All the suspense is killing u.
Well what if the thing ur waiting for is a million times BETTER than a
laptop? What then? I bet yu couldn't sit still or even produce a
coherent thought for the whole "waiting" period.
Sigh.
I'm going to go pray now.
And whoever reads this, pray for me.
Ps I have a metabolism test I HAVE to ace or I'll lose my mind. So
pray for me please.

Love
The jittery shimmery jitter bug.

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December 27 2008

December 27 2008
12:00 pm
In front of class 91C on the floor wishing I could sleep right then
and there.
I left my iPod at home so I wrote the following on my mobile, here it
is :

Am I hapy?
I have no clue
All I know is that I'm so blue
I feel like crying
I feel like dying
I feel like splitting in two
Maybe I'll go smoke the brazilllian coffee blend
I don't think it'll change anything
I'm not on the mend
I'm on the corner bend
I don't smoke I just pretend
Yes, that's a fake cigar in my hand
I made of in art class when the teacher left
'cause someone put red ink on her chair
I won't tell who, I swear
So it gave me time to make this fine Cuban
With pencil shavings rolled in construction paper in the perfect shade
of brown
Then I sat here on the edge of town
Oh for God's sake wipe off that frown
I haven't done anything wrong
So quit looking like a clown
I'm fullfiling a dark desire
To speak French and smoke like there is no tomorrow
Not care about the world
Forget my sorrows
So it all comes down to this
I want to not care
Maybe then I'll acheive bliss?
Then will it not hurt anymore?
I have no clue
But I'm sure Jean Peirre* would know.

*jean peirre is just a French name I used instead of saying I'm sure
the french would know.

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Lalalalalala

Lalalalalala
That's what I feel like today
Lalalalalala
I feel like a helium ballon high and floaty

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Rant rant rant !!!

To know how long a second can be just try watching a whole video on
YouTube it is excruciating!!
Oh and btw I did get the movie list but not all of it, just the vital
ones mainly Twilight and the version sucked so bad I am watching it on
YouTube so on the quality side it's great but on the slow side it's
horrible!!
Whoever has a food copy or is coin to buy the orginal DVD, my birthday
is in April but I accept gifts all the time!
I am DYING to see it properly!
This is too hard :(

Peace out!

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Crap crap crap!!!!!

Crap crap crap!!!!!
I just overslept and missed my class!!!!
It is so annoying because 2 or 3 of my absences are because I was 10
minutes late and the teacher wouldn't let me in!!!!
I don't know how many abscences I have accumulated, and I'm worries
I'll be banned from the final exam!! And have to redo the subject
( please ya Allah no!!)
Sigh, now I'm debating whether or not attend the nutrition class it's
from 10-11 and then I'm fre for the day,
Is it worth going to?
I mean should I go back to sleep and call it a day?
No lo se!

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The decision

So much time has passed
And I can surpress the need no longer
The need to dream and wish
To let my mind wander
And Bring the fairy tale to life
My fairy tale
For every person has their own
It is freedom to roam the world
And conjure the most delicious of images
To not so much create as to see what is always there
Waiting to be seen and felt
I have wasted my last year in confining myself to reality
To the words of dissapointment that linger in the air I breathe
But now I know, reality was made by those who chose not to imagine
Not to beleive they had infinite possibilities
And that the The All-Mighty Himself can and will give them what they
want
All they needed to do was beleive
Beleive that there is goodness and purity in the world
That honesty and love exist
And that life is what we make it
But they refused
Even though in their heart where no one except The One could see, they
knew it to be true
They rejected the thought and set out to make the world a boring and
lifeless place
Working hard to rob it from its color and beauty
Putting all effort to silence the laughter
The music of love and kindness
But I shall not succumb
I have been reminded by the fairies
The ones who add magic to all things
The twinkle in a persons smiling eyes
The mischivous bubble of joy on the lips of a child
The fairies, the product of a beautiful imagination are as real as the
imagination itself
The minute we allow ourselves to give up dreaming and wanting the wish
to come true
Is the minute we lose all hope of ever surviving in the world
So that is what I am doing once more
I'm throwing myself at the mercy of my vivid imagination
I'm giving my mind free reign in the world of possibilities
And I advise you all to do the same

December 23-2008
3:08 AM

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The list!

> My obsession for the sliver screen has no limits sadly
> And I have written down the latest list of movies and tv shows I am
> dying to see.
> So here it is :
>
> •Movies:
> Changeling
> Twlight
> The love guru
> Role models
> Rockn' Rolla
> Shoot 'em up
> Eagle eye
> Pride and glory
> The day the earth stood still
> Samantha: an American girl holiday
> The haunting of emily hartley
> The women
> Nights in rodanthe
> Under the Tuscan sun
> The princess bride
> The secret life of bees
> High school musical 3
> Wild child
> The house bunny
> City of ember
> Freedom writers
> Max payne
> Quantum of solace
> Punisher: war zone
> Forever strong
> Transporter 3
> Brideshead revisted
> Broken glass
> How to lose friends and alienate people
> Ghost town
> Forgetting sara Marshall
> Hamlet 2
> In Bruges
> Miss pettigrew lives for a day
> The dutchess
> P.S. I love you
> Love story
> City of ember
> Penelope
> The nightmare before Christmas
> Step brothers
> Dreamer
> Bolt
> Charlotte's web
> Four Christmases
> Fred claus
> Beverly hills chiuhahua
> The curious case of Benjamin button
> The boy in the stripped pyjamas
> Luck of the irish
> Madagascar 3
> Igor
> Across the universe
> How to lose a guy in 10 days
>
> •Tv Shows:
> NCIS (6seasons)
> Numb3rs (4seasons)
> Brainiac
> The latest buzz
> Mind your language ( British comedy)
> Kyle XY
> Top gear ( last 3 seasons)
> Samantha who? (season 1-3)
> Related (season 1-3 )
> What I like about you
> House M.D (season 1-5)
> Private practice (season 1-5)
> Greys anatomy (season 1-5)
> How I met your mother (season 1-5)
> Are you being served (British comedy)
> Yes, Minister ( British comedy)
> That 70's show
> Freddie
>
>
> Sent from my iPod

My brother is going into surgery and I have school!

My brother is going into surgery and I have school!
Life sucks because A- I had no idea
B- I can go cuz I already have 3-4 absenses and I'll get forbidden
from the final exam if I miss this class :s
I do hope he's ok
Love u fofo darling.

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"CRASH!!!"

"CRASH!!!"
I have hit rock bottom- and before anyone says the only way is up- I'm
blue and sick n tired of being me this moment, being nice, watching
out for people's feelings I'm sick n tired of being sick and tired
I just feel winded and beaten up emotionally
I have a lab midterm in 11 hours and I am studying off my iPod cuz I
don't have a PC and someone unplugged my printer and now it's going to
take days for it to reboot, we had only one working computer in the
house left and now that one's gone bust.
Honestly at the moment I hate technology because it made a so
dependent on it we can't function without it no more!!!
Like this iPod I'm writing from, it's my lifeline, cuz if I didn't
have it I wouldve screamed until the paint peeled off the walls. It's
my venting device.
A few years back I had started writing officially and me and my laptop
were glued to each other, then it HAD to get milk spilled in it's
keyboard, and it's power supply HAD to break, and it stayed unused for
six months and it's like I lost a vital organ, now I'm working on
fixing it, 700 riyals worth repairs. I thought if I didn't have a
laptop or a PC for a while dad would notice and get me a new one, but
it didn't work, I didn't want to buy a new one by myself cuz A-it's
too expensive B-the laptop I want is top of the line with 4 GB ram
300GB hard disk 2.5ghz and it's either All fuscia or All screaming
yellow!!!( it costs 8500 riyals) it's a Hypersonic
Besides I found out that it's best to get expensive gadgets as gifts,
they give them more value and meaning plus they live longer.

I'm still in a crappy mood,
I want to watch greys anatomy and sleep without HAVING to wake up.

I wish I didn't grow up and be this person, I don like her, she's not
funny and fuzzy and confident.

I blame one person for part of my misery, she hurts me with her jokes
about me, she keeps going on and on about how I'm not good enough how
I should be better how I don't know how to dress or that I have no
taste,
On and on
repeatedly sayings words that she may see as constructive critisism
but I see as mean jealous ignorant and hurtful.
At this moment of time I truly hate her, everyone tells me to ignore
her and that she's that way with everyone but I can't anymore, then
she wonders why I don't visit and call a lot, all she knows how to do
is 3etab. And she is such a sucker for the boys in my family, she sees
them as perfect creations whereas we - the girls- are the screwups. I
can't stand her anymore.

So I've decided,
I'm going to be me again,
The girl who falls asleep on the couch and wears comfy cute clothes
and does her hair however it decides to be that day, gone is the me
that has been here for the past year, adiós.
Though on the morals side I'll hold on to the good things I've aquired
like respecting my parents and doing great in school.
Other that that I will not allow people to feed off my emotions and
feelings anymore.

Signed,
A pretty blue girl.
December sixteen twothousandandeight eleven fortyone pm.

Sent from my iPod