When will it stop?

When will it stop?
This lonliness that ebbs and flows
When will my sorrow end?
I can no longer pretend
That I'm okay.
Have I ruined every chance of meeting you?
By telling the world about you?
Did I make a mistake?
I'd take it back.
I wouldve kept it a secret
But I wanted everyone to know that you're real
I thought it would make you come faster
That you'd hear them talking about you and come to me
Why aren't you here?!